Messiah...and home again.

This past weekend I got a chance to go and visit Messiah for the weekend! I was so excited to go, though a little scared because this was my first weekend away from Luke. It was a fantastic weekend filled with fantastic people! I love love love my friends at the school, they mean so much to me! I have not laughed that much in a long time!
Part of it was really hard for me because I had to go back and basically experience what I am missing because of having Luke, but at the same time I couldn't help but realize how grateful I am for Luke and that I wouldn't change a thing. This was really important for me because sometimes I get really bitter that my life plans got cancelled. It is hard for me to admit but then I get to see Luke and his smile when I walked in after a long weekend and it made all the sacrifices worth it.
Coming home was hard though, I hadn't seen Danny since Thursday and got to spend 30mins with him before he had to head home to sleep. My mom just started on about what he should have been doing over the weekend, I was just happy to see him and she started on. It was a hard reality that I don't get to be with him, and our decisions as a family are being judged by her, our decisions in our relationship are being judged by her, and there is not escaping it, she is there, it is not even like we have to confront it when we visit but all the time. It is a really hard way to form a healthy relationship, and be good parents. We are trying to be postive but it is beginning to get wearing and I am beginning to wonder why our prayers our not being answered...

Sister for Hire!!

Visit http://cakebycaitlin.blogspot.com/ to see pictures for my sister Caitlin's cakes and cupcakes! Not only are they beautiful but really delicious!

Crappy Day...

This mornig Caiti and I went out head to chruch to help with an easter egg hunt and stations of the cross. And low and behold we found a big pile of poop smeared into my back drivers side seat. Someone opened my car door (which I forgot to lock) went through my glove compartment and center consule (didn't take anything, not like there was anything to take) and then pooped, alot, on my seat and smeared it in. Then to top it off wiped with Luke's new outfit! Needless to say today was a crappy day!

Luke Daniel DeLucia turns one!!!

Hard to believe that it has been a year! Luke has grown so much and is continuing to grow, everyday he learns something new! He is such a blessing and joy to be around and reminds me everyday that I am loved!

Here are some of my favorite things about Luke:

• He senses when people are upset and does cute things to make them feel better like kissing them, bringing them teddy bears, or laughing in their face.
• He loves books and will bring you one and sit down next to you until you read it.
• He smiles so big every time we go outside, even if it is raining or snowing!
• He knows what he wants and knows he is cute enough to get it!
• He cuddles when he first wakes up.
• He smiles whenever his Daddy walks in the room, even if he just went to the bathroom.
• He will walk right up to you to make friends and win your heart in a second.
• He stares out the window longer then he will watch cartoons.
• He gets excited to eat his banana every morning.
• He swims in the tub and actually listens when I say 'tush in the tub'.
• He loves animals and even though I don't I love his love for them!
• He hides things everywhere!
• He kisses me when I ask... well most of the time.
• He loves when Danny and I have fun with one another but cries when I tickle Danny, I think his little girl squeal scares him!
• He watches people and is very inquisitive.
• He makes a huge mess but will help you clean it up!
• He vacuums for me!
• He is sweet to other kids.
• He snorts :)

I could go on forever......

For his birthday we went to Holmdel park with Oma (my mom) and Aunt Lisa. Luke loved it! Here are some pictures from our day and the cake!

Dress Up!

Luke had his first dress-up session. But no he was not a fireman, policeman, even a mailman. He was a ballerina, Lilo (from Lilo and Stitch), and a Native American. Here are some pictures from his adventure. *I am not responsible for this, this is what happens when your son spends a day with his three aunts*

Sorry they are sideways!!

Decisions

Danny and I have decided to postpone the wedding. As much as we want to get married we want Luke to have a good life, and without a stable job we can't offer that to him. We decided to plan out everything and then once he gets a job we will set a date about three months after. We are trusting that in God's time he will provide for us and until that time we are going to work on our relationship and just enjoy our time with Luke. It is a hard decision to make but it is for the best. There are a lot of things going on in my family right now also though so we need to reduce the stress on them. A wedding should be a joyous thing not a stressful matter. Please keep praying that Danny finds a job and please pray for my family.

Luke took an early nap so I took a long shower and used up all the hot water! Now I am sitting in my underwear drinking tea and watching The Office online. Happy Valentine's Day Rebecca!