Luke took an early nap so I took a long shower and used up all the hot water! Now I am sitting in my underwear drinking tea and watching The Office online. Happy Valentine's Day Rebecca!

Ups and downs

We have found a hall, church, caterer, photographer, DJ, Videographer, and dress for the wedding! And they are all available June 5th! Oh I want to jump for joy! But then I realize wait we still don't have a place to live, we still don't have a full time job with benefits but we do have an amazing little boy who will be one in March who needs his mom and dad together, but also needs health insurance and food. I want to trust God and set the date but I am so scared that things won't pan out. Then what? My mom won't let us live with her. Live with Danny's parents? I just want a little security. A job w/ benefits. We can live on one salary, we can live on next to nothing, I grew up like that, we don't need coffee dates or cable TV but we do need to be together as a family.

Please pray, for a solution, for peace, for our family.

Psalm 6

1 O LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger

or discipline me in your wrath.

2 Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am faint;

O LORD, heal me, for my bones are in agony.

3 My soul is in anguish.

How long, O LORD, how long?

4 Turn, O LORD, and deliver me;

save me because of your unfailing love.

5 No one remembers you when he is dead.

Who praises you from the grave?

6 I am worn out from groaning;

all night long I flood my bed with weeping

and drench my couch with tears.

7 My eyes grow weak with sorrow;

they fail because of all my foes.

8 Away from me, all you who do evil,

for the LORD has heard my weeping.

9 The LORD has heard my cry for mercy;

the LORD accepts my prayer.

10 All my enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;

they will turn back in sudden disgrace.

With a VERY busy semester ahead of me, a wedding to plan, and a little guy getting his molars it goes without saying that I am exhausted. But yet I have this yearning desire to dive into a solid relationship with someone, to really invest.

Christmas update ( a little late!)

Christmas was wonderful! I love Christmas and having my own family makes it that much better! I can't wait till next year when we are in our own house and we can really start our own traditions. Luke could have cared less but my little social butterfly loved seeing everyone. He is completely like me when it comes to people, he loves them! We had quite a few Christmas's and here is one picture from each!

Christmas Morning Party

Christmas Eve

TT Tammy and Justin

Christmas Morning with his shoe box!

Christmas night at my Aunts

Christmas Morning with Aunt Caiti (12/26)

Christmas at Gigi and Poppi's (12/28)

Five Generations in Ohio! Luke, myself, Poppi, Nana, and Grandma and Grandpa Myers

(Luke's Great Great Grandparents! 90 yrs old and still making dirty jokes!)

Other than Christmas life has been busy planning our wedding! We still don't have a definite date, a full time job for Danny, or a place to live but we are trusting God!!! It is very exciting and we know that we are doing the right thing so God will provide!

I'm a little behind...

I have not updated in awhile, sorry. Tis the season for loads of schoolwork and lots of illness. All three of us have been sick over the past month and I am just praying for a healthy Christmas. I love getting ready for Christmas and while Luke has no idea what is going on I am just head over heels in love with Christmas.

I'll have a Christmas update later once I get around to uploading pictures but for now I'll let you know about all the exciting things Luke has been doing.

It is amazing how much he is growing. He finally learned how to crawl forward!!! And now he is pulling himself up on things, amazingly he has not gone after the tree yet, but that might have something to do with the toy box

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locking it off. Luke just recently started waving hi and bye, though it is a little delayed but the fine motor skills are there! His favorite thing in the world is the bath, he crawls into the bathroom now once Jeopardy ends, I don't even need to start the bath! It makes me laugh so much how he loves the tub!

Luke's first Thanksgiving was a ball! Everyone just loved seeing him and he loved the turkey! He is still not sure about mashed potatoes but that's okay I'm sure he will one day! Here is our family picture from Thanksgiving w

hich may end up as our Christmas card if I can't get our scanner working.

It takes me awhile but I get things eventually...

I am learning that even though I am miserable I can still be thankful. This revelation occurred to me this morning after I finally broke down crawling on my knees to God. It is a funny thing to realize, that I might not be happy for awhile, but I am learning to accept that and TRUST that in the end things will be good. I am going through this for a reason. Now I will admit that it is VERY hard to believe this sometimes but I think just the small glimmer of hope I have will get me through. Best of all though is I have now accepted that when I don't think I can get through I am probably right, but I KNOW that God can get me through.